Wednesday, April 30, 2008

The Ready Heart

a heart like a windsock
to pick up the breeze
to understand others sadness
with ease
to try to help them
see past the pain
to all the happiness
they can gain

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Rest in Peace Angel Schrage

We love you Angel and we miss you!! Now you have 4 legs and can run free!

Sunday, April 27, 2008

emerging colors

I had to pull back
Can't you see
I had to pull back to find me
I couldn't try to be someone else
to conform to others standards
to find an identity that is true to me
I had to sit alone and "be"
and soon my colors emerged

Saturday, April 26, 2008

My Hair/listening

After years of having stick straight hair, last year my hair started to curl. It started with one curl and it ended all over my head. They aren't the "little" curls, they are big curls and they have their own mind. My sister said my curls represent the "change" in me. Maybe, but I like the change better than the curls.;)

So, today, I had my hair all straight and I went to the soccer field. It started raining and soon I looked like a wet sheep dog. I decided just to roll with it today. It is not my best look but there is no fighting it today.

I was thinking about fighting curls and it reminded me of fighting life. Sometimes, we need to just sit back and go with the flow. If we are so busy fighting the flow, we will miss the lesson. The lesson is always in the journey. Sometimes, listening is the best thing, just to sit and listen to the "God voice". Listen, learn, and stay on the path.

Good night!!

Friday, April 25, 2008

The Supernanny Show


Thanks everyone for all the kind emails and phone calls!!! I am so thankful for every single message because it is my goal to help other people!!

I will be posting my story sometime today on Jo's site,

I have to find someone to watch Cara so I can type it out. It will be a little later. :) She is great while I am on the computer but I get distracted when writing.

So, all I can say is "yes, my kids are still in their own beds"!!! YAY!!!

Oh, and a special thanks to the nice family who want to donate enough paint to us to paint the entire upstairs!!!! That is so incredibly amazing!!!

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Thank you

For everyone-

Follow the road to find your way

Learn to live and learn to play

Feel the feelings and learn from them

Move on, keep going

kindness will win

Monday, April 21, 2008

Be True

Try to always be true to yourself

no matter what people might say

you know your road

and you know your dream

you know on which path to stay

follow the passion God put in your heart

that is the beginning it's where you will start

Sunday, April 20, 2008

the Forgiveness of Friends

As many of you know, I have been through a lot of changes in the past 12 months. There is always a beginning. The first little ripple of change, this is where the ripple started for me, a few months before I even called the Supernanny show (which I will talk about more on Jo's site).

Starting in January 2007, I became a co-leader of a womans 12 step program. I have always wanted to help women and I thought this would be a great way to start.

Things went great for a while, then the stress of leading a group with someone else started to creep in. We started to disagree a little bit on how things were going, how we were leading, and who knows what else.

I don't even remember how it happened or who sent the first email but Jenny ended up offending me (it is not hard to offend someone with little self confidence, someone who had grown numb to their own life). I am ashamed to say, I wrote her back with a nasty email, I said mean things. It is such an easy way out, to say mean things and push send, instead of dealing with all the hurt feelings.

Jenny was angry to say the least. I felt a little bad so I sent an email that said "sorry, I emailed in anger". She didn't respond.

A few days past and I felt horrible. I had acted impulsively and said horrible things. I knew she would never want to talk to me again.

One day I was mopping my kitchen and someone knocked at the door. It was Jenny. She came in and gave me a hug. She said "can we talk"? We went upstairs to talk. I was amazed because I didn't sense any anger or blame in her voice or demeanor. She just looked at me with tears in her eyes and said "what you said really hurt me, do you really feel that way about me"? That moment, I realized someone actually cared enough about me to forgive me. Jenny and I talked and worked everything else. Her compassion and understanding amazed me.

Today, she is my closest friend. She has seen the worst in me and loved me anyway. She is aunt Jenny to my kids and I know she will always be there for them.

When I decide what to put on this blog, I try to think if what I am saying will help someone else. I am putting this story "out there" because it was the first "ripple" of change for me. I had become someone I didn't recognize. I had no life in my eyes at all, totally numb to life. I had the desire to help others but no self confidence. Jenny had shown me the value of unconditional friendship. It was easy for me to forgive but not easy to see how someone else could forgive me. That was the lack of confidence thing.

There is wayyyyyy more to my story. This is only the start. It had to have a beginning ripple.....
Hey, to all my other friends who have been along for my journey. I love you too!!

Saturday, April 19, 2008

To Be Free

to be creatively free

is a blessing

it is a swirl of the spirit

it is colors that overlap

it is the ability to express how you feel

in ways that seem flowing to you

like leaves that

blow in the wind

with no apparent destination
I decided to try and paint what creativity would look
like, this is what I came up with, kind of like peacock

Thursday, April 17, 2008


I had a flat tire today in the car line. It just popped like I had hit an elephant. I moved my van out of the way and sat there. Two men came over to me and offered to change my tire. I was very happy someone had come to help me so quickly.
When they were done, one of the men said "all I ask in return is that you help out someone", he said "now, you don't have to change a tire, but show kindness to someone". I told him I would do that.
I hope we all can pass kindness around. It just warms my heart to think about everyone repaying kindness for kindness.

It might start as a little thought

then the little thought turned into action

it grew into an act of kindness

the act of kindness changed a life

then the changed life had a little thought..........

I do love the picture--- Christy

Monday, April 14, 2008

Misplaced Dream

There once was a dream

it was happy and free

it was glowing with yellow and green

then the dreamer got busy

life took control

the dream tried to hang on

but had no where to go

the dream was put away on a shelf in a box

then the dreamer quit dreaming

and grew very gray

just moving about from day to day

then the dreamer remembered

the box was still there

she opened it and colors filled the air

she vowed to the dream it would come true

as she spoke she saw sparkles of yellow and blue

Friday, April 11, 2008

The Hands

The imagination of children should be treasured

taken care of like a jewel

nurtured while they have dreams

encouraged while the dreams grow

never taken for granted or pushed aside

help their minds to soar

never to lose the sparkle

Cara and I sat outside today. We were storm watching. She kept pointing to the sky and saying "look at the hands". I didn't see hands, but I kept looking. I said "you mean, the top limbs of the trees", Cara said "Emma and I call them the hands because they look like hands to us", she said "the hands are getting bigger Mommy".

I hope they never lose the sparkle. I hope to always encourage them to see every color and every "hand".

Tuesday, April 8, 2008


If thankfulness grew like leaves on the trees

I'd take the leaves and keep them with me

I would try to look over

at least one a day

so negative thoughts wouldn't get in the way

I would water the tree with tears from my eyes

and give it full sun so it would survive

Monday, April 7, 2008

the Question

Sometimes it's all in the question

the look in someone's eyes

they need to know someone cares

they need to realize

to show love to others

is easy if we try

just a heartfelt "how are you"?

as they pass by

Sunday, April 6, 2008

The Dream is Alive

Oh, there you are

all yellow and white

It is great to see all of the light

Where have you been, did you go away?

All I could find was a dull shade of gray

"I'm your dream. I'm still here. You forgot about me"

"I had to wait for you to see. The gifts have been here for you all these years,

they were hidden behind all the tears".

"Now paint , write poems and help others to heal. You can shine this time, it is REAL".

Wednesday, April 2, 2008


To paint what I see

is a blessing to me

to write what I feel

makes it seem real

to share my truth with you

might help you dream too

Find your dream and

you will know

the way which you should go