Happy New Year!!

What a year 2012 has been! I am wishing everyone a wonderful 2013!

 

Peace

Feel the peace! Walk with love in your heart!!

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas, from Kyle, Christy, Ellie, Emma and Cara!!!

Sandy Hooks Elementary

 Rest in peace to the sweet children and faculty who died in the shooting. My heart is broken and my family is praying for the whole town.
 

Brain Freedom

Life is such a learning experience. I'm so glad God is so gentle in teaching me.

All of my life I have gone through life like a bull in a china store. I was labeled that way as a kid, adhd, headstrong. My zodiac sign is the ram so I just figured I was destined to be this way. There are several issues with this because when you ram your head into everything head first, sometimes, your head gets stuck in the drywall. For years, I have thought this is just who I am and I am totally NOT able to change it. So, I put up prison walls around myself with this issue. I convinced myself that I am impulsive, headstrong, unorganized, flaky....but the good qualities, artistic, visionary, empathetic, intuitive, funny...were good enough to balance out the other ones.

FINALLY, after years of thinking this way, I am free of the label. There is no reason why I have to live with bars....I can learn to stop and think, I can learn to not go headfirst into a wall without thinking, I can learn to keep my mouth shut until I have thought about my answer. I CAN do these things. There is no bar that says "christy has to be impulsive and unorganized".

There is are no more prison bars around my brain. I am FREE. Thank you God!

Trusting Love

It is amazing what happens when God gives you the gift of really opening up to people and praying for those in need. For years, I was very guarded, now, I can be an open book. It started with something Jo Frost taught me when we did Supernanny, then, God had to sift me and I felt very raw. I was an emotional basket case for a few years, opening up is hard. Now, I am healed and I want to shout it out loud. I want to tell others there is hope.
 My friend Debby said to me recently, "you have to trust those who love you". I have finally accepted it. I have an awesome husband, great kids, great parents and great friends.
 I'm writing this to share love, share Jesus and give others hope.
 Love God, Love People, all people.

Looking for Gifts

 It is important to live everyday as a gift
 enjoy the little things
 look for a gift everytime
 you step outside
 God never disapoints
 his artwork is always

 beautiful

If you are feeling down

 When all else fails
ask God to show you
 how to be creative
how to make others smile
 to let you know your gifts
so you can use them
 to help others do

the same

Fall

I love fall. Fall and its ever present colors give me peace. I see things in colors and pictures and fall makes everything more vivid!
Thank you God for fall!

Try

No one ever said it would be easy
 to follow a dream
it may have up and downs
 and in betweens
but keep climbing
 the hill is not so high
just remember to
 TRY

Take Your Dreams With You

I wrote this in 2009, thought I would repost it.

Take Your Dreams With You

Follow your dreams

from your heart

out the window of

your mind

do what you

feel is your

purpose

don't leave the

dreams behind

ps- it is never too late!

Attitude of Blessings

Today, I am walking with an attitude of being thankful!
 I have noticed when I am walking in complete thankfulness,
God astounds me with his blessings!

 I am thankful for my wonderful family!

Happy Birthday Ellie

Time flies. I can't believe Ellie is about to turn 15. I remember like yesterday when she was born, c-section because she was breech. I remember her first work, "yum", her first pooty under an umbrella, how she was scared of any kind of face painted on a wall ANYWHERE we went. I remember how FUNNY she has always been and is still hilarious.  She has the perfect shaped bald baby head when she was born, people would stop me and tell me she was beautiful. Time flies.
 I love you Ellie. You have become such a sweet young lady and I love how you love God, family and friends.
 Happy Birthday!

For My Friends Struggling with Depression

Try to count your blessings

the things you feel are good

try to live each day

as you wish you could

try to take a step

toward fulfilling

your dreams

this will help

take away how

depression makes

things seem

Run through the yard!

 Our dogs are driving me crazy! They want to go outside and just sit there. They whine, bark, stare at me, try to get in my lap....just to go outside and then they don't want to get off the porch.
 I wonder if this is how God feels when we miss opportunities. When we beg for the best and then he gives it to us and we aren't satisfied or won't get off the porch. Just wondering. I think a lot...I do know God loves us regardless of whether we get off the porch or not!!!

Leslie's Blog

Hi! My friend Leslie has started a funny blog about Motherhood. Please check her out!
www.rabidmotherhood.blogspot.com
  

The Sky

I've been sky watching again lately. I feel like God talks to my from the clouds. I know this may sound weird but we are all wired differently and when I say talk, I mean , I am aware of his awesome presence when I look at the beautiful colors of the sunset or the different shapes of the clouds. I love and take time to notice colors painted by the greastest artist ever!
Please take time to notice something that will inspire you! There is beauty all around.

 

Peace Chasing

If you are feeling overwhelmed plan to take one babystep a day
God will help you
we are all here for a reason
and
everyone has a gift!

Hi!!! School started today. Ellie is in 10th grade (high school starts tomorrow), Emma is in 6th, and Cara is in 4th. They are all going to have a great year! Ellie will be in tomorrows photo. Silly Cara crossed her eyes, she is always silly but she is a blessing and keeps me laughing.
 I finally will be able to blog regularly again!!!

Jo's New Show

Hi Friends! My friend Jo Frost (formerly known as Supernanny) has a new show coming out on TLC!! She is great at what she does and loves the people she helps! Please apply is you have any family issues. Jo is the real deal and her passion is to help families!
 Please email to nannyprojectcasting@gmail.com
and include name
age
phone #
email
city
kids names and ages
a brief description of why you need Jo's help
attach a current photo

The road we are on is long. Layers of the onion for all to peel. I am so thankful to God and all of my friends and family who have been on this road with me. Being in school again and learning all about counseling has been a big part of healing for me. I'm not perfect, just different. It is so meaningful to me to be able to hold my hands out and say "how can I help you" to hurting people, instead of  "let me fix you" as I did in the past. Helping others without fixing is done in love. It took me almost half of a lifetime to learn this. Fixing always led to thinking I have to control, control is not done with love (although, I never realized this in the past). Love is hands open, control is hands closed.

 Thanks to everyone who has helped me on this journey, ya'll know who you are and I love you.  

as I sit down to write

In a field of bright yellow flowers
I sit down to write
 why has it taken you so long? he ask
I don't answer
then, I say, sometimes I get off track and lose my way
I struggle to see you but I can't see the white through all the clouds
 things get in my way, feelings of the past abandonment
He says "the white is nearer than anyone knows"
 The white starts shining brighter as it hugs me.
God then says, "I will never abandon you"
 Then the white turns to a bright royal blue and fills my heart
I'm shaky but feeling loved, not quite strong but on my way...
 never to be lonely again

“Real isn't how you are made. It's a thing that happens to you. Sometimes it hurts, but when you are Real you don't mind being hurt. It doesn't happen all at once. You become. Once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand. Once you are Real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always.” 
― Margery Williams, The Velveteen Rabbit
My favorite quote, I held on to it as a child...

What Jesus said to me today.....

When you feel sad, when you feel life's sting, just ask for me and I'll take your pain. I'll sustain you and show you love. Come to me, please come to me.

The Beach

Sunrise at the beach......the most calming thing ever. God is amazing!

Today, Cara put an airsoft pellet from the neighbors gun in the top of her ear. It ran down and got stuck. We had to go to the Emergency room and they flushed it out. NEVER a dull moment at our house!

Love Bird Painting

My latest painting! :) 

Looking Up

The sky calms me
walking outside when there is a beautiful sky makes me happy
the colors
the air
the peace