Sunday, February 12, 2012

Looking Up

The sky calms me
walking outside when there is a beautiful sky makes me happy
the colors
the air
the peace

Goodbye Whitney

Rest in peace Whitney Houston.

Friday, February 10, 2012

My Health

 I'm sitting here tonight alone. I was excited about being alone and painting but I cleaned the house instead, lol.
 I'm not feeling great and decided to tell my blog readers about it.
 On Tuesday I went to my gynecologist for an ultra sound because I have had some pain in my side and some other symptoms and they wanted to check it out. I wasn't really expecting them to find anything.  They did find I have a cyst on my right ovary but they found something I wasn't expecting. They told me I had a mass in my uterus and they needed to do a biopsy right then. At the time, I was feeling okay about it but really not wanting to have the biopsy done. Biopsies of the uterus are very painful because they  have to pin the cervix out of the way to get to the uterus. I survived though and they told me I was brave for not screaming, ha.
 I now have to wait a week. A long week. I have gone through being certain it is a cyst to being sad and numb tonight. I want to be healthy for my family!! I want to scream that but God only needs a whisper.
 If you are a praying person, please say a prayer for me. I know God is in control of my life, but I will take each and every prayer!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Friday, February 3, 2012

As we walk along, things happen
not always what we have planned
through the disappointment
the real plan will emerge
in all its brilliant color
when you are disappointed,
look for the rainbow and
the path will be just around the corner

Thanks God for always pointing out the paths of our hearts!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Congnitive Behavior Therapy

I'm learning about the difference between thoughts, feelings and emotions. It can be so confusing. Apparently, emotions are stupid (read this actual sentence last night). "they have no intellect. Emotions cannot tell the difference between fact and fantasy, or between past, present, or the future, Our feelings will predictably respond to whatever we put in our minds" Bob George.
 This explains a lot of my past behavior to me. Knowing this is such an eye opener. Now, when I feel a rise in anxiety over something, I ask myself if it is a thought that is triggering a false emotional reaction. Complicated but great stuff!
 art owl by Cara