To be comtemplative is hard sometimes to feel what others feel although I haven't had the same experiences I can feel your pain I can see the heart in the middle of the mess so very clearly continue to follow it even when the road is black light will always get through the black will turn to white when you give up the struggle and feel the peace
In a flower bed there are beautiful flowers They are standing up facing the sun They are happy people admire them They know God put them there to help people Then a storm approaches The flowers are nervous The storm knocks them down After the storm they lie on the ground They look defeated Then God sends the sun They began to stand up Soon they are more beautiful than before and they understand better
“Good day” said the king, “I have something for you”. “I’m giving you colors purple, yellow and blue”. ”The purple will cover an oversized chair”. I said to the king “Oh, I can’t sit there”. “Don’t be silly”, said king “you’ll fit it just fine, remember the purple has always been mine”. ”With yellow the walls will radiate light”. “oh, king I’m not sure, it may be too bright”. “Don’t be silly my child, this yellow is for you”. “Now quickly lets move on to the blue”. ”The blue is electric it holds you in place, it’s firm and supporting, and it resembles my face”. With that the king went away in a snap. Once there and now gone, I felt strangely alone. He left me feeling confused but ALIVE. “what should I do , how can I survive”? I’ll embrace the colors the king gave me with love and I’ll use them wisely with guidance and help from above.
The wheel is quick to take a turn It can roll backwards or forwards forward is the way to the deep blue sky backwards is the way through clearness sometimes the wheel has to roll through the clearness to find the sky
The sky is black and filled with stars do you know I put them there The morning is light because of the sun Did you know I designed it just for you Every thing I made I made for you Every ounce of creativity on Earth I have given to you stand back and observe take in everything do not rush do not rush
Most people who read my blog know my story. In order to be honest with myself and any of you sweet things that read this, I am choosing to say "I'm not feeling great right now". I have hope and I have not given up on any dreams. I'm just down. So, here is my writing from the car line.....
why does everything seem so hard to me when I know others have it much worse Life is not horrible for me I am very blessed Feelings are hard for me trouble with what I feel where did it even start when did I change what changed my heart in some ways I have felt free to fly in other ways the rawness prevents the freedom
and from yesterday
can't see the top it is there but I don't see it too far down in the middle maybe others can see it better than me there is not a lot of color where I am Maybe I can make some color first I need a few more layers of skin I feel too much right now all of my layers are gone
the scene is water all around lots of puddles lots of mud what does it mean it is still except for a few ripples from the birds as they drink the water is brown the color of stability could that be true to find stability in brown water
I am a mom of 3 girls and a wife to Kyle! I want to help others learn about themselves by sharing myself and my life. I would love to encourage others, to help them be creative and use the gifts God has given them. If I can do this, I am happy!
A lot of people have gone further than they thought they could because someone else thought they could -Zig Ziglar-
Sent by a friend (author unknown)
Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past stop planning the future stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel stop deciding with our mind what we want out heart to feel sometimes we have to go with whatever happens happens