My Life Without Sleep

so to sit in the dark

not being able to sleep

is not fun for me

maybe it is because

I think to much

but I never sleep

nothing helps me

not any kind of medicine

not any kind of herb

not any kind of technique

it is starting to get to me

I just feel like I can't

take this much longer

what I would give to

have one night

that I actually sleep

and actually stay

asleep

it will take a miracle

at this point

but I can't go

on like this much

longer

Remembering Loved Ones

There are some people

that I miss everyday

I miss their laugh

their smile

their funny personality

there sweet caring nature

My aunt Jo would have been 74

years old today

I miss her

My Grandmother Nannie

would have been 104 today

I miss her

They are now dancing

in Heaven

with no pain

Learning About a Legend

Learning about what a legend is...through a child's eyes....they just want to watch the music ...

Farrah and Michael

What a sad day in Hollywood. Two icons gone. Farrah Fawcett totally amazed me with her bravery in her fight with anal cancer. Her documentary of her struggle was amazing and my middle child watched it with me. She learned about real bravery while watching Farrah.

When I was a kid, I loved Charlie's Angels, of course, I wanted to "be" the strong brunette, Sabrina, when all of my friends wanted to be Farrah. :) Farrah was so beautiful, but I found her more beautiful by being open with her fight with cancer in hopes she could help save others lives.

What can we say about Michael Jackson? I have been listening to CNN and I love the stories about him as a kid and teen. He was so sweet before fame put him in a bubble. No matter what anyone believes about his life, we can ALL agree, he was one of the best performers ever and music will NOT be the same without him.

Rest in Peace to two of the icons from my childhood. My prayers are with their families, children and friends.

side note- I am praying MJ's kids will be left alone to grieve in private without the media.

Light Friends

Life is funny
it reveals your
answers
when you are ready
to hear them
when you have grown enough
to understand them
then God will put people
in your life that
can help with the journey
people that have a similar
understanding
of what you may be
going thru
they may not always
provide answers but
provide good questions to
help you find what
it is you need to find
kind of like angels
who are there to watch
you and be lights...if
you need them.

Happy Birthday to Roy aka Daddy

Happy Birthday to My Dad who turned 82 on Saturday! We enjoyed spending time with you! I love you!

Layering

Things can have several layers

do we ever really get to the middle

all we can do is

try to find it

the journey is the

destination in a way

TRY TRY TRY

okay, so now that I am posting this it is reminding me of the old tootsie pop commercial. How many licks to the center...LOL

The Box

sometimes no matter how hard you try

nothing happens

nothing can change and you

feel like you are stuck in a box

the box will move sometimes so

you think there is a way out

but there isn't

still there in the box

the way out is an

illusion

How does anyone

change this?

Loving the Sunsets

Behind My Eyes

You can find me way back

behind my eyes

I stay there

and observe

Much to learn

much to feel

when my goal

is

to be real...

I am learning to sketch with charcoal. This is really the first thing I have tried. The eye.

Remembering

There are some things that stick in my mind, they never leave. People who have touched my life and are now gone.
Have you ever driven by a house that was formerly occupied by someone who was close to you but has died? It is strange. I can still see my Mamaw at her house. She was so attached to her home and I grew up there. Every where I have moved, I have moved her rose bush with me. Just a cutting everytime. I can still feel her around the roses. They are still beautiful.
I have dreams all the time about being at Mamaw's house. I am always so glad to see her there. Sometimes, I am trying to "save" some of her belongings...this is because I don't have much that belonged to her and I wish I had more.
My aunt loved her house. She didn't get out much. She had a long battle with cancer. She died when I was 23. I still feel like part of her is with that house. I am tempted to drive by the old stone house everytime I go back to Nashville.
So many great memories of people and the places they left behind.
In the pic-Mamaw's rose bush.

Creating Earrings

My best defense for depression is to be creative. So, even though I am feeling really good right now, I know the best thing for me to do is to keep creating..

These earrings I made for a friend. I made them in her aura colors. It was fun and something I can give as a gift from the heart.

My advice to people who are coming out of depression (my advice for someone going into depression is always see a doctor) would be to keep creating, do something you love, if even for a few minutes a day. Put your heart into it. :)

Cara's interview

What is your name? Nara, I mean, Sara

what do you do? sit behind my Mommy

what is your favorite color? Blue, pink and purple

How many sisters do you have? two more

who are they? Demma and Ellie the elephant

What is your favorite show? Spongebob square pants

what is your favorite thing to do? go swimming at Mrs. debby's house

how old are you? 5 years old

what is your favorite song? i chicka um chicka

Do you like summer? yes

do you like making sugar toast? I like that

Has the interview fun? no

What had you rather be doing? going to church

what else? nothing

Who is your best friend? my teachers- Jessica and Lauren because I like hugging them.

Bye-

the Question

Sometimes it’s all in the question
the look in someones eyes
they need to know someone cares
we all need to realize
to show love to others
is easy if we try
just a heartfelt
”how are you”?
as they pass by

The Miracle of the Seed

It is amazing how a little seed

can make a beautiful flower

they just keep growing

until they bloom,

help people to smile and

bask in the miracle

of God's art

Wordless Photo

Swirling

sometimes the sky

reveals what is

going on in

my mind

the swirls

the different

colors

wanting to

mix together

and make

a

beautiful picture

to share

with others

to spread peace

and

Happiness