The Path

If the path is too shaded

check to see what the trees

have to offer

always look

as to never miss

the blessing

Look past the clouds

the sun is stilll shining

even though

it can't be seen

FEEL IT

Give Your Heart Wings

Give your heart

Wings to Fly

and Follow your

Dreams!!

for two of my friends

To be comtemplative is hard sometimes
to feel what others feel
although I haven't had the same experiences
I can feel your pain
I can see the heart in the middle of the mess
so very clearly
continue to follow it
even when the road is black
light will always get through
the black will turn to white
when you give up the struggle
and feel the peace

Always Follow Your Dreams

Believe in yourself enough to follow the dream God put in your heart

The Rain

In a flower bed there are beautiful flowers
They are standing up facing the sun
They are happy
people admire them
They know God put them there to help people
Then a storm approaches
The flowers are nervous
The storm knocks them down
After the storm they lie on the ground
They look defeated
Then God sends the sun
They began to stand up
Soon they are more beautiful than before
and they understand better

a story- written a few months ago

“Good day” said the king, “I have something for you”. “I’m giving you colors purple, yellow and blue”.
”The purple will cover an oversized chair”. I said to the king “Oh, I can’t sit there”. “Don’t be silly”, said king “you’ll fit it just fine, remember the purple has always been mine”.
”With yellow the walls will radiate light”. “oh, king I’m not sure, it may be too bright”. “Don’t be silly my child, this yellow is for you”. “Now quickly lets move on to the blue”.
”The blue is electric it holds you in place, it’s firm and supporting, and it resembles my face”.
With that the king went away in a snap. Once there and now gone, I felt strangely alone.
He left me feeling confused but ALIVE. “what should I do , how can I survive”?
I’ll embrace the colors the king gave me with love and I’ll use them wisely with guidance and help from above.

friends

What would I do without my friends

friends who love me no matter what

even if I seem a little confused

even if my progress

may seem slow right now

my friends support me

and offer encouragement

for each baby step

AND

each time I fall on my face (which is quite often lately but I always COWGIRL up)

This is for Jenny, Debby, Shannon and Kadi who have been soooo kind to me.

the Wheel

The wheel is quick to take a turn
It can roll backwards or forwards
forward is the way to the deep blue sky
backwards is the way through clearness
sometimes the wheel has to roll through the clearness to find the sky

Being Open

How is it possible to share without being open

Being open with others brings truth

truth will help those

who need it

truth will also help

the person sharing

to let others in

and end the loneliness

and the guardedness

one person

at a time

Awareness

Keenly aware of things all around

wondering how help can be found

sometimes it is best to step back

to breathe

have silence

think

perceive

and for some

we need to grieve

Life keeps going

It's okay

BELIEVE

The Gifts of God

The sky is black and filled with stars
do you know I put them there
The morning is light because of the sun
Did you know I designed it just for you
Every thing I made I made for you
Every ounce of creativity on Earth
I have given to you
stand back and observe
take in everything
do not rush do not rush

What could be

What could be

what is the potential

what is the answer to the questions

only God can answer

we have to trust

trust the gifts he gave us

follow the path that leads to peace

love others and help them

on the road

we will then grow

we will bloom

with great beauty

feelings

Most people who read my blog know my story. In order to be honest with myself and any of you sweet things that read this, I am choosing to say "I'm not feeling great right now". I have hope and I have not given up on any dreams. I'm just down. So, here is my writing from the car line.....

why does everything seem so hard to me
when I know others have it much worse
Life is not horrible for me
I am very blessed
Feelings are hard for me
trouble with what I feel
where did it even start
when did I change
what changed my heart
in some ways I have felt free to fly
in other ways
the rawness prevents the freedom


and from yesterday

can't see the top
it is there but I don't see it
too far down in the middle
maybe others can see it better than me
there is not a lot of color where I am
Maybe I can make some color
first I need a few more layers of skin
I feel too much right now
all of my layers
are gone

Create It

If it is there it can be painted

even if it is unclear what it is

the colors will eventually

show the path

then it will be easier to follow

For my Mom

You picked me up after I jumped off the front porch with an umbrella trying to be Mary Poppins and almost broke me nose.

You continued to take me fishing even after I threw the whole pole out into the water.

You took me out in public even after I had turned over a few toy racks at the grocery store.

You hung in there with me even though I was so impulsive I scared you to death.

You survived riding in the car with me even though I put numerous comic books over your face while you were driving.

You took me to church even though I sat on the front row with my hands over my ears when the ladies would sing in "churchy" voices.

You actually encouraged me to speak my mind so I would be able to take care of myself. This had to be hard for you.:)

You let me be myself during my high school years and I was sooo proud to have such a sweet mom!!

Now, you are a great Mima and you freely admit I have been paid back for any stress I put you through (with 3 girls).

I love you Clara Mae Richey, mama, and Mima.

Right now

there are not a lot

of answers going through my head

lots of questions

the road isn't clear

going back is not an option

but I see nothing

not even small stepping stones

to bounce across

no clear picture

no color at all

just nothing

but even this shall pass.......

Feeling Green

to look out and see green

is calming

green signifies growth

green signifies health

to me green is the color of abundance

a color of a new day

a color of healing and healers

Little Eyes

Little eyes do you see

you can be anything

you want to be

follow your dreams

to find your road

God will never give you

too heavy a load

I will be here to

help you walk

to stand by in silence

or to talk

Painting

if it goes through my head

should it come out of my mouth

or should it come out of my hand

sometimes painting is better than speaking

sometimes paintings can tell a story

they speak

without saying anything

indecision

the scene is water all around
lots of puddles
lots of mud
what does it mean
it is still
except for a few ripples
from the birds as they drink
the water is brown
the color of stability
could that be true
to find stability in brown water