the Silence

Sometimes the silence makes me sad
I don’t know why
More fun to be had?
That’s not it
not fun for me
I am still searching
how to be
to be true
without any
falseness

Wear Tennis Shoes While on a Scooter!

Warning, wear tennis shoes while on a scooter!! Sweet Ellie is being much more brave than I would have been. :)

Supernanny Update- It has been a year!

Hi- it has been a year since our Supernanny episode aired. I am so glad to report that all 3 of my girls are still in their own beds! They are now 11, 7, and 5.

We are so grateful to Jo and the Supernanny crew for making it a wonderful experience for us and giving us the tools to parent successfully. :)

We still have trying times but we do now have to techniques to use. Recently, Emma started gettting scared at night again. We didn't cave in to her and let her know we were not going backward, she is fine now, it only lasted about 3 days.

Mima is doing good. They respect her space now and everyone is happy.

Ellie is singing, Emma plays soccer and Cara hasn't tried anything yet, I think she is leaning towards gymnastics.

It was a very rewarding experience for all of us and we will always be grateful to Jo for helping us. I will always be grateful to Jo for helping me to find myself. :)

Kim C.- you are an angel and one of the best parts about being on Supernanny, is having you for a lifelong friend. :)

I will update again next year at this time!!!

Children and Empathy

After the Good Friday tornados, we went to see some of the damage. When we were just looking at businesses, the kids were all excited and talking. When we drove into the residential neighborhoods, Emma said "Cara is not talking" (cara never stops talking so it is strange if she stops). I turned around and Cara's eyes were filled with tears. We were passing the home where a mother and baby died. Cara was feeling sadness for them and all of the other people whose homes were so visibly distroyed. She was taking it all in and it was too much for her. Cara is 5.

Children are very empathetic. I am going to encourage my kids to feel the empathy for others. It is okay and an amazing gift.

Missing Peace

When the rain hits the window

it is comforting

even though the sun is

more enjoyable

why does the rain seem

so familiar to me

maybe because it

makes me feel the

feeling that something

is missing

there is a peice of

the puzzle that is

just not there for me

maybe one day

note-writing is my way of working through thoughts in my head, I hope it can make some sort of sense to those who read it.

Right now, I am so thankful for child hugs!!! Nothing better.

Update From Yesterday

I went last night and had a great time like I knew I would. It was just so hard for me to see past the clouds to find the sun. Everything worked out for the best and I got to hang out with some amazing ladies that I am blessed to call friends...

Sometimes it is best to push through the depression, it is good to know that I beat it last night. :)

Please never feel bad if you can't find the energy to push through. I understand that too. It is different for everyone who suffers from it. It is baby steps to healing.

Walking with me

I am all ready to go out with some friends I haven't seen in 15 years. I mean, I have seen some of them but others I haven't...suffering from depression, this is hard for me. I have tried to think of ways to get out of it. I have to be truthful and well the truth is, I am feeling quiet. Writing is one thing but talking is another. Depression is very isolating and I have to fight that.
I called my friend Leigh Ann who has been my friend for 36 years and I asked her if it would be okay if I didn't go...Leigh Ann said "no and why"...so I am going. I am sure as soon as I get there I will have a blast but making myself see past the clouds right now is not easy. I have even given myself a headache.....
I will let you know tomorrow how much fun I had....remember, if I can do it so can you!