Friday, September 16, 2011

A Little About Me


Hi Friends! I have to type quickly because I have to cook dinner and go to class.
I written about part of this before. The past year has been so freeing for me. God is so good to free me of things that have haunted me for a while (although, I was totally ignoring it).
I can now admit to all my friends who read this blog (I have actually been able to tell this before but I say that the past two times I have told it are the first because I now BELIEVE it, which also made it so much easier to be free of it. I've blurted it out in the past and felt nothing, those did not count.
When I was 9 years old, I was molested by a 14 year old boy whom I trusted. I quickly pushed it aside and told myself "it could have been so much worse so I'm okay"...moved on and never dealt with it, just buried it.
Fast forward a few years, we did Supernanny in 2007, I met Jo Frost and her encouragement started a major healing in me. She knew that the problem was not our children, the problem was the parents and she talked with me and knew I needed to break free of some stuff. I'm forever grateful and thankful to have her as a friend.
I continued to heal over the past few years and parts of it have been hard, I have used writing and painting to help. :)
I am getting my masters in counseling and the classes have helped me so much. i have found a group of friends @ the Refuge who LOVE GOD and LOVE PEOPLE. I was able to stand in front of this group of people and tell what happened to me without any shame. I"m so thankful for them.
Now, I feel free. I know one is never completed healed in life but I feel like I have been given a fresh start and I am so thankful. I know longer have a scared 9 year old girl hidden in my heart.
I'm only sharing this with you because I know there are others just like me, who live in shame for something you had no control over. Pray for freedom and take baby steps. It is possible to heal your heart.
Thanks to friends who has listened to me for years and I love them so much! First, my husband who didn't know about any of this until a few months ago, Debby, Kim, Jenny, Leslie, DeeDee, kadi, Judy and Kathy, I love ya'll.
Healing is possible. Like the song says "maybe blessings come through raindrops and your healing comes through tears"
God Loves You no matter who you are.

1 comment:

Libby said...

Great blog! This is the first time I've read it.
Having a blog of my own, I know how therapeutic writing and sharing your life with others can be. I also know how much courage it took for you to share this about yourself. You should be proud!
Another thing I've learned through my blog is that you may be very surprised by how many people have experienced the same things you have.
Keep writing and keep being brave! :0)
Libby