Waiting

To be honest..waiting is never easy for me. Right now I am waiting to schedule a surgery on my two degenerative discs in my neck. I feel like a loser because I can't do as much. I only have to wait until Wednesday but it is playing tricks with my mind. I am going to choose right now to give this anxiety I am feeling to God. I'm going to try to turn off the negative thoughts and be positive. If you read this and are a praying person, please say a prayer for me. I am my own worst critic and it is hard for me to admit so.

 I write to share and be transparent in hopes another person who is feeling bad, can join me in looking up. :)